Quick Introduction and Day 1
Hello There.
I've decided to give blogging a second chance as it serves as a calming mechanism for me. I don't know who I used to be relative to now, but if it's worth it, I'll keep continuing. This is generally more of an online diary than it is useful information for now, but I may go back to philosophizing like I used to once I get through this hurdle in my life.
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Today has been aggravating so far. I've been trying to following the general advice of "If it takes a minute to do it, do it now," and with that said, I decided to finally trudge over to the bank for the third time in the past two weeks to try to settle some issues that I've been facing because I accidentally deposited a fraudulent check. One minute I told myself. However, after the busy manager told me she'd speak with me after 15 minutes, I ended up waiting over an hour for service that took five minutes.
I walked out reflecting on how based on the power dynamics, she must feel her time to be more important than mine. I could tell when she said 15 minutes that it was going to be at least a half hour, but she should have said to just come back another time, albeit I was just ready to deal with this already. Furthermore, I started to remember how little my time means to anyone. I thought about being humiliated by the one professor that I considered working with earlier this semester who never got back to me. And I remembered how I know I've just been looking for "answers" or maybe just a mentor for some time now, and how that godsend figure just simply doesn't exist.
As I was just writing this, I received an invite to a Latin Honors ceremony that is asking me to contact a faculty member who has helped and mentored me through my academic career at Temple. The irony. I want to attend this event, and at this point, I think I need to list myself as my own mentor. It's a painfully lonely thought for me, but my vapid "accomplishment" of getting through college is something I did not receive much help for besides my parents. I question, as I did last semester, whether barreling on is something that deserves more recognition than my one professor's book gave it credit for. I lean towards saying yes; it's been a painful journey. Truly.
Anyway, here's my initial goals for today and this week. April used to be a favorite month of mine, and so ultimately I'd love to clear up some work so that I can allocate time to it:
I've decided to give blogging a second chance as it serves as a calming mechanism for me. I don't know who I used to be relative to now, but if it's worth it, I'll keep continuing. This is generally more of an online diary than it is useful information for now, but I may go back to philosophizing like I used to once I get through this hurdle in my life.
xxx
Today has been aggravating so far. I've been trying to following the general advice of "If it takes a minute to do it, do it now," and with that said, I decided to finally trudge over to the bank for the third time in the past two weeks to try to settle some issues that I've been facing because I accidentally deposited a fraudulent check. One minute I told myself. However, after the busy manager told me she'd speak with me after 15 minutes, I ended up waiting over an hour for service that took five minutes.
I walked out reflecting on how based on the power dynamics, she must feel her time to be more important than mine. I could tell when she said 15 minutes that it was going to be at least a half hour, but she should have said to just come back another time, albeit I was just ready to deal with this already. Furthermore, I started to remember how little my time means to anyone. I thought about being humiliated by the one professor that I considered working with earlier this semester who never got back to me. And I remembered how I know I've just been looking for "answers" or maybe just a mentor for some time now, and how that godsend figure just simply doesn't exist.
As I was just writing this, I received an invite to a Latin Honors ceremony that is asking me to contact a faculty member who has helped and mentored me through my academic career at Temple. The irony. I want to attend this event, and at this point, I think I need to list myself as my own mentor. It's a painfully lonely thought for me, but my vapid "accomplishment" of getting through college is something I did not receive much help for besides my parents. I question, as I did last semester, whether barreling on is something that deserves more recognition than my one professor's book gave it credit for. I lean towards saying yes; it's been a painful journey. Truly.
Anyway, here's my initial goals for today and this week. April used to be a favorite month of mine, and so ultimately I'd love to clear up some work so that I can allocate time to it:
Pick up Brook from 30th Street StationGo to counseling psych at 3:30Skim through textbook and extract relevant information for rest of paperFinish Counseling Psych final paperFinish Counseling Psych group paperFinish "The Boy who was Raised as a Dog"Leadershape ApplicationReligion Discussion Post- Science controversial topic paper
Psychoanalysis PaperNeurosequential Model Paper
I'm being a bit overly ambitious, but I do feel like I'm ready for it this week.
Peace and Love,
Jessica Angeline
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