Tuesday's Gone

Yep, it's Wednesday already. I know that I need to stop feeling bad about myself, but it's been difficult.

Yesterday, for example, was infuriating. I got up, forced myself to go to the library, and applied for a job at Drexel, not that Drexel thrills me. After spending four hours working on the application including writing a beautiful cover letter about some books that I love related to the research lab I would be working in, I was automatically parsed as "unqualified." I wish that I knew why, and I wish I didn't put all that effort in for nothing, but I guess that applies to a lot of things in my life already. I was upset afterwards and somehow managed to play Rogue Legacy until 2am. Oh, and that does not even account for the time I wasted on sporcle.

I can confirm now that video games are not a good idea; I've been struggling to get out of bed for three hours now thanks to my exhaustion from *truly* fighting off skeletons and imps and demons in the castle last night. For as much as some people have been pushing me to get into the habit of playing video games with them, I'm done.

I'm going to try to put away my phone for sake of concentration as the day goes on. I think my official plan will be to prendre mon petit dejuner, completez mon application pour le travailler de temple, faire une promenade au Wissahickon, et completez les magasins secrets. Je pout etudier mon francais plus aussi???

Je voudrais postuler à "Planned Parenthood" aussi, mais ça depende de la fatigue que je suis.

The grind sucks right now.  However, I just watched a video from a medical student outlining how well he is able to manage his time with a military schedule, so if he can accomplish things, so can I. For now, I will, eat, clean a little, and send some emails out: Dr. Russell, Dr. Detrixhe, Dan if he said anything worth responding to.

And I will commit to getting some exercise today. no more excuses.  

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